FML. I wish I could go back and relive the last 4 or 5 days. They were so awesome. London was amazing and then I had two and a half days home alone with my sister, which meant I could do whatever the fuck I wanted to. Like watch Downton Abbey and go on Tumblr without anyone barging in my room.
But my parents came back like an hour ago (with my brother) and now I feel like CRAP. I actually feel utterly shiiiite. They’re in such bad moods (no doubt due to Christmas being around the corner) and I can tell that my brother doesn’t even particularly want to be here.
Over the last year or so I’ve realised that I’m happier (well, neutral is probably a better word) when I’m alone - or around a group of people that I like being around. I can’t stand being around people who see Christmas as a chore. Because I NEVER have, yet I feel like the one who’s now looking forward to it the least. IDK, I feel claustrophobic now that they’re home. And when I feel claustrophobic it also makes me feel really lonely.
I was sooooooo excited for Christmas a few days ago, but now I wish it were weeks away. I’d enjoy Christmas more if they looked forward to it too, or if I spent it with people that don’t make me feel like this.
Ashes to Ashes. Downton Abbey. Doctor Who. Harry Potter. Miranda. Doc Martin. Upstairs Downstairs. Scott and Bailey. Sherlock. Mock the Week. WILTY. Silent Witness. Waking the Dead. Keeley Hawes. Hayley Williams, Taylor York, Jeremy Davis (Paramore) are my idols. Dan Stevens. Michelle Dockery. Joanne Froggatt... whole Downton cast. A Rocket to the Moon. YMAS. ATL. Hey Monday. Safetysuit. Mayday Parade. We the Kings. Pop/punk and punk/rock is my kind of thing. I like mainstream, pop and 80s too though! Claire. 16. England. Secondary blog, probably won't be used as much as my primary blog - we'll see.
